Today had not been a very good day.
I woke up with Shah on my mind... I mean I had been good past 1-2 days and suddenly teringat pulak kat dia. I guess it is just me being a constant 'worrier' when I am kept under the dark and I can't help but think what's going on. Oh... honestly Reen... he is none of your business anymore! Arrghh....!!
So, I busied myself today. I went to send Yusuf to school...then I went to the wet market. Bought more veggies. When I saw Krishnan, one of the sayur seller.. he said:
"Akak... you banyak fikir ka? You macam bukan dekat sini..."
"Huh?! Aahh.. ya.. saya oklah Krishnan, ada fikir sikit2 la.."
I don't know what to say pun!
Once I reached home, I received a text message from Man.. I call him Man Ayam. He's the helper of Kak Ainon. I will usually say 'Hi' to them everytime I go the market but today, I saw them rather busy so, I just went home. Man usually sends my groceries home. I am one big lazy bum when it comes to groceries that I usually call Kak Ainon to shop me the veggies and chicken from her. Then Man will send them home. Anyway, Man smsed me actually and asked if I was alrite since he was surprised to see me so 'skinny' now. Boy.. Do I look that bad? Hmmm.... I must look horrible, Man had never texted me unless I wanted to buy some chicken!
So, after balik sampai rumah, I made mee goreng.. Alamak! Teringat dekat Shah because he loves mee goreng. Then I cook for lunch. Later, I went to Jalan Kuching to get a few stuffs from the apartment. Once I reached home, Ain arrived with some fruits. We talked over lunch, then Kaklong and her family arrived. So, the house was full again with the kids. Alhamdulillah...
Later we arranged the sofas and dinner table to accommodate for a double bed brought down to get my dad to sleep downstairs. Not in the room downstairs because he will be couped up in the room so, we put the bed where the dinner table was earlier. I hope Abah and Mak are ok there. Kesian but that is the best place I think since Abah should not move a lot..(at all actually).
The traffic was surprisingly heavy when I fetched Yusuf from agama school in the evening that I was late for my jog. So, as soon as I reached home, I ran...and ran..and ran.... It felt good to be able to run. I was tired but I didn't care... All the while I was thinking about my current situation and my recent past. How things changed... how fate turned my life upside down and I am still in shock... But I can't do anything about it.
Anyway, now that I am in bed... I feel more relaxed.
I just have to plan my life now...
I have to plan what to do.
First things first, next week I will be busy again working, alhamdulillah.
I have to prepare some slides to present my research and hope that the grant will be continued for the second year.
I will have to finish off my exam questions...
Then I would have to attend an unusal meeting called : Mesyuarat Perancangan Strategik at the Dean's office, somewhere with others from the faculty.
I have this idea of collaborating with the sports medicine unit and nutritionists for a project to pursue my interests in Lifestyle Medicine, obesity in particular. We'll see how it goes.
Now, I think I better move on to make some questions first for the masters exams...