A month of floating in a daze...

AsSalam...

It has been a month, exactly a month when I last spoke to Shah... Asking if he was really getting married.
Tak sangka... sebulan, how time flies...
Not a single day had gone by without me, thinking of him...
Stupid me... but that is the truth...

But, alhamdulillah, I am so much better.
ALLAH makbulkan my doa to make me better...
I know, I can't forget him totally,
He had been and will always be a part of my life,
but he will not be anything except someone who had taught me about men,
about life and about love of a men~ an immortal...who will surely break my heart.

Shah,
I ikhlaskan everything,
Just go and be happy,
I know, you will always remember me everytime you call up your daughter,
because we share the very same name...
I hope she will become a good doctor oneday,
AMIN...
and Adik... I hope she will take care of you..
AMIN.

I hope, you would not compromise your time with your kids after you have a new life now.
Kesian anak2 Shah...

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I am down with a minor bouts of flu... same as last month too...

I was unwell with flu just about the same time when I was distraught with Shah.

Anyway, I am very busy now with my research... I am just so tired working at night and the weekends too. Next week will be research the whole week. I hope everything will work out alright. AMIN...

I just don't know what else to write...

All in drafts and I don't wish to publish them.

I'm just... I just... want to be alone.

-Ereen-