The rough seas are gone...

AsSalam...

Alhamdulillah... after a very agonisingly painful week... (wow, it had been a week!) I am feeling calmer tonight.

Honestly, I just can't be angry at Shah. In fact I now feel the tranquility of all these 'dark' episodes in my life. I should thank Shah for all that has happened, although I was and still is very sad and distraught somewhat, at the same time, I am experiencing the other side of this 'musibah'. All I can say is Alhamdulillahi Rabbil 'alamin...

I can now see that whatever that has happened is a very small thing. Now at least I can say that. Initially... I felt like the whole world was crumbling down on me. I was struck with difficulties, one after another. That was then... now, alhamdulillah... I feel ok.

This morning, Hisham sms-ed, telling me that he was at the hospital for an appointment. He was due to see a colleague of mine. I was too getting ready to go to the hospital, to return Abah's hospital garment and to collect his medicines. I wanted to hand over the bunting to my research assistant as well for tomorrow at Bukit Bintang.

So, on the way to the department, I just asked Hisham if all was ok and if I could help him with anything. I asked my colleague if he could see Hisham as he came as a 'walk-in' case. It was not a big issue. Hisham had to wait the whole day though as his case notes took ages to arrive to my friend. Anyway, I just help whatever I could.

I just felt a little awkward, just a little because i saw Shah in Hisham. In the end, I just had to tell Hisham that he could contact me whenever he needed any help and Shah doesn't have to know about it. I really don't want to know anything about him anyway. In fact, I did not mention anything about Shah to Hisham and he didn't mention anything about Shah as well. I'm just guessing that he sensed that I didn't want to discuss or talk about Shah at all.

Shah is history.

And I would like to keep it that way.

Someone tweeted:

"Life is too short to spend it with people who don't make you happy."

Now, how true is that?

And my quote for today is:

"In life, shit happens... just make sure that you are NOT the shit" ~ excuse my 'French'...

*peace*

~Ereen~