Alhamdulillah... after a very agonisingly painful week... (wow, it had been a week!) I am feeling calmer tonight.
Honestly, I just can't be angry at Shah. In fact I now feel the tranquility of all these 'dark' episodes in my life. I should thank Shah for all that has happened, although I was and still is very sad and distraught somewhat, at the same time, I am experiencing the other side of this 'musibah'. All I can say is Alhamdulillahi Rabbil 'alamin...
I can now see that whatever that has happened is a very small thing. Now at least I can say that. Initially... I felt like the whole world was crumbling down on me. I was struck with difficulties, one after another. That was then... now, alhamdulillah... I feel ok.
This morning, Hisham sms-ed, telling me that he was at the hospital for an appointment. He was due to see a colleague of mine. I was too getting ready to go to the hospital, to return Abah's hospital garment and to collect his medicines. I wanted to hand over the bunting to my research assistant as well for tomorrow at Bukit Bintang.
So, on the way to the department, I just asked Hisham if all was ok and if I could help him with anything. I asked my colleague if he could see Hisham as he came as a 'walk-in' case. It was not a big issue. Hisham had to wait the whole day though as his case notes took ages to arrive to my friend. Anyway, I just help whatever I could.
I just felt a little awkward, just a little because i saw Shah in Hisham. In the end, I just had to tell Hisham that he could contact me whenever he needed any help and Shah doesn't have to know about it. I really don't want to know anything about him anyway. In fact, I did not mention anything about Shah to Hisham and he didn't mention anything about Shah as well. I'm just guessing that he sensed that I didn't want to discuss or talk about Shah at all.
Shah is history.
And I would like to keep it that way.
"Life is too short to spend it with people who don't make you happy."
Now, how true is that?
And my quote for today is:
"In life, shit happens... just make sure that you are NOT the shit" ~ excuse my 'French'...