AsSalam...
Work took me away from the computer lately. I had a few lectures to prepare and alhamdulillah..I think all went quite well in the end. Despite my initial reluctance to take over other lecturer's slot for the lecture. It was purely last minute bidan terjun thingy and exams was so near and the schedule for everyone was packed as well.
I was worried for so many little things and big things that I was somewhat overwhelmed and I just had to go through what I had to do one by one, multi-tasking all the way. With the lately crazy weather... thunderstorm that hit KL/PJ, left my house with malfunction gate! So, now... the gate has to be operated manually and I am so worried about going out at night. I don't think repairing it would be worth the while since I would be moving out very soon.
I am still working on another lecture for a conference next weekend. I hope everything will be OK. It is on something that I am passionate about: obesity. I have been toying with the idea of writing a book on it. I have started long ago but it just got stalled after the first chapter! hahaha... I have to find sometime and I hope, when I take my sabbatical leave soon, i would be able to materialize some things, not just for me or the university but to those who really in need... the community, my patients and friends out there. InsyaALLAH.
Anyway... I hope I can settle a few things next week when I will be on-leave. I have to go to my son's new school, the new kindergarten and also to get water and electricity supply for the new house. Then I can get someone to paint some walls and the house cleaned up before moving in, insyaALLAH.
Last 2 weeks, I miss my kekasih... very2 much. I felt he was around. And I so want him to be around. I miss his jokes, his.. everything really. And I was not alone. Minmin also cried wanting him.
Min: Mommy... please doakan Minmin masuk syurga ok.. sebab Minmin nak jumpa Abah... and she sobbed...
What can I say... except, of course mommy doa... kita semua jumpa Abah nanti...
Just oneday..only ALLAH Knows when, if ever.
Please Ya ALLAH...please sampaikan salam rindu kami pada arwah.
Semoga ALLAH merahmati dan membahagiakan Abang disana...
AMIN.
I love you, Abang...forever, as always.
-Ereen-
Friday, April 26, 2013
Monday, March 25, 2013
Here and there, everywhere....
AsSalam...
Ok.. I am going to 'curi tulang' a bit today, writing this while I am at work.
I am just plain tired of reading and others for today.
I just need a break for awhile.
It had been awhile I guess since the last time I wrote something here, not that it matters to anyone but I just felt like I should be writing something. I did actually but all were half done and kept in drafts.. s few actually.
What I want to put today would be pictures of Yusuf's birthday pictures on 17.03.2013. I mean his birthday was on 17th March but we had an early dinner since 17th was on a sunday. I just thought that we might enjoy ourself too much on a Sunday night and he would be tired the next day, a school day.
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| The three of us: The Feisal's |
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| Happy 9th Birthday Mommy's boy! |
Minmin and her delicious RV.. and Minmin and Icop enjoying their BR. Minmin as usual wants anything in pink!
Later, the kids wanted to have some icecream so, we head off a few doors away to BR. The kids surely ekjoyed themselves that nite and I am just so happy to have them. Although it was just the three of us...
I try very hard to make him happy because eversincehe knew he was adopted, he can become quite sensitive.
Later I asked Yusuf if he was happy... His response was: "Happy sikit.."
I was rather disappointed to hear that because I really tried hard.
"Why bukan happy banyak?"
"Sebab Icop nak abah... Kalau ada abah lagi best"
What can I say... he still misses his dad...
"Mommykan selalu beritahu, Abah will always be in our hearts?..Abah selalu dengan kita kan?"
I shed a few tears and hoped that my beloved kekasih is happy looking down at us.
Bahagialah Abang disana.... AMIN.
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On Sunday morning, I went to Batu 14 Puchong to help out at the Myanmar refugee camp. I went to give some medical service to the kids. Only half a day, along with a collegue of mine and also a few medical students.
A group picture ended the session for that day...
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A few other things happened but dah lupa apa.
Anyway, I just came back from a short trip to Cameron Highlands. It had been many2 years since the last time I went up there. I don't thinkI had been up there with my beloved arwah so, at least 15 years I had not been there. It must have been when i was 6 years old kut, was the last time....
This time, I drove up there with my parents and my kids were with my sister. It was really good to be away fro awhile. Even though I was down with a mnor viral infection...with bodyaches and a mild fever at night, it was good to just not do anything since the internet connection was bad over there.
We just came came back last night...
Unfortunately, Minmin was angry at her brother yesterday and she has deleted all of her Abang's pictures in my phone. :(
I am so sad... Lunckily i have a few already uploaded in FB. Other nice ones, and of her's merajuk all had been deleted. Must make copies and save them somewhere in the clouds cepat2... and now, I have locked my phone so she cannot browse and delete anything she wants.
Today, I am back at work..alhamdulillah. I am thinking of another holiday, much needed... I hope to go alone though.... InsyaALLAH.
-EREEN-
Monday, March 4, 2013
17th + birthday..03.03.2013
AsSalam...
It is just a minute past mid night.
I had a wonderful day today.
It started off really slow and lazy in the morning.
Only the 3 of us at home then, both Yusuf and Yasmeen went to my sister-in-law's to meet up with my parents in law. By the time they got home at around 4pm, they were just too tired.
We went to fetch Titin anyway, tired or not.
By the time we reached home, I was already late for my 'date' with Lyl and Sab.
We were supposed to have late lunch or tea. But I reached our rendevous at around 6pm, almost dinner time! Sorry guys...
The food was scrumptious!
Just as we were about to finish our dinner, the man who entertained us at the restaurant sang a birthday song... I thought it was for someone else...
Then the entire restaurant was singing the birthday song for me! Yes...! It was embarassing but hey! I was more flattered actually... I was touched.
I was happy and everything else...! I just laughed when the 'entertainer' sang 4 other birthday songs in other languages...it was hilarious!
He sang some other songs and in many, he would mention my name and make a joke, a funny story. Like 'Hello'...there was a phone call and the story went like he called up looking for 'Haireen/ Ereen and that my mom who answered the phone said I was out, with someone else... etc2 and suddenly my mother called him back and asked if he wanted to masuk meminang? It was so funny...
The coffee and cake was really really good...
I only have to say thank you to my friends, Lyl and Sab for being there, making my day more meaningful to actually realise that I have them in my most trying times and happier times. And they had lifted my spirit, and I am just feeling so much blessed today.
While I was driving home just now...
I learn the true meaning of a friendship...
You not just be there in good times and bad times but you also make time to make your friend's time more meaningful and make them feel, they're really valued!
This goes to my dearest friends too.. NNI and RI.
Alhamdulillah...
I love you- all my family and friends...
Indeed, age IS an accurate number but what matters most would be what we actually feel inside in ourselves.
I told a friend of mine called Az: I am 17 plus (you just have to do the math on how many years that plus means)
And as I have told another friend of mine...
I don't and will never age...
"I just mature with grace and style..."
Alhamdulillah Ya ALLAH...
for ALL Your countless blessings...
:))
-Ereen-
It is just a minute past mid night.
I had a wonderful day today.
It started off really slow and lazy in the morning.
Only the 3 of us at home then, both Yusuf and Yasmeen went to my sister-in-law's to meet up with my parents in law. By the time they got home at around 4pm, they were just too tired.
We went to fetch Titin anyway, tired or not.
By the time we reached home, I was already late for my 'date' with Lyl and Sab.
We were supposed to have late lunch or tea. But I reached our rendevous at around 6pm, almost dinner time! Sorry guys...
The food was scrumptious!
Just as we were about to finish our dinner, the man who entertained us at the restaurant sang a birthday song... I thought it was for someone else...
Then the entire restaurant was singing the birthday song for me! Yes...! It was embarassing but hey! I was more flattered actually... I was touched.
I was happy and everything else...! I just laughed when the 'entertainer' sang 4 other birthday songs in other languages...it was hilarious!
He sang some other songs and in many, he would mention my name and make a joke, a funny story. Like 'Hello'...there was a phone call and the story went like he called up looking for 'Haireen/ Ereen and that my mom who answered the phone said I was out, with someone else... etc2 and suddenly my mother called him back and asked if he wanted to masuk meminang? It was so funny...
The coffee and cake was really really good...
I only have to say thank you to my friends, Lyl and Sab for being there, making my day more meaningful to actually realise that I have them in my most trying times and happier times. And they had lifted my spirit, and I am just feeling so much blessed today.
While I was driving home just now...
I learn the true meaning of a friendship...
You not just be there in good times and bad times but you also make time to make your friend's time more meaningful and make them feel, they're really valued!
This goes to my dearest friends too.. NNI and RI.
Alhamdulillah...
I love you- all my family and friends...
Indeed, age IS an accurate number but what matters most would be what we actually feel inside in ourselves.
I told a friend of mine called Az: I am 17 plus (you just have to do the math on how many years that plus means)
And as I have told another friend of mine...
I don't and will never age...
"I just mature with grace and style..."
Alhamdulillah Ya ALLAH...
for ALL Your countless blessings...
:))
-Ereen-
Saturday, March 2, 2013
Forever young....
AsSalam...
Titin is again 'cuti' over the weekend, which means I would be maidless when she is gone.
So today, after sending her off somewhere near Sogo where she would meet up with her husband, my kids and I went straight to Ikea.
The intention was to feed the kids, tire them up by window shopping and then head home. Silap sangat 'ter'order adult portions that we had a hard time trying to finish up our food. Fish and chips was really good, penne with bolognaise sauce, 5 pieces of chicken wings, broccoli and some dessert. Banyakkk sangat kan?
After our hearty lunch, we went to shop for a few stuffs in Ikea and then to The Curve. Yusuf got his birthday present and Yasmeen got herself a pink camera. Baru happy...
Now, the kids are tired and hopefully all will sleep real soon.
Tonite will be the first nite that I am at home 'alone' with the kids. The first ever, ever since arwah left us. Before this, we would 'cabut' to Kaklong's place at Jalan Kuching or all the time with a bibik around. I don't have the courage to be alone with the kids in this old, secluded house. Seram...
Today, I told my mom that I would try to be brave... I just have to, sampai bila nak jadi penakut, kan?
Titin is again 'cuti' over the weekend, which means I would be maidless when she is gone.
So today, after sending her off somewhere near Sogo where she would meet up with her husband, my kids and I went straight to Ikea.
The intention was to feed the kids, tire them up by window shopping and then head home. Silap sangat 'ter'order adult portions that we had a hard time trying to finish up our food. Fish and chips was really good, penne with bolognaise sauce, 5 pieces of chicken wings, broccoli and some dessert. Banyakkk sangat kan?
After our hearty lunch, we went to shop for a few stuffs in Ikea and then to The Curve. Yusuf got his birthday present and Yasmeen got herself a pink camera. Baru happy...
Now, the kids are tired and hopefully all will sleep real soon.
Tonite will be the first nite that I am at home 'alone' with the kids. The first ever, ever since arwah left us. Before this, we would 'cabut' to Kaklong's place at Jalan Kuching or all the time with a bibik around. I don't have the courage to be alone with the kids in this old, secluded house. Seram...
Today, I told my mom that I would try to be brave... I just have to, sampai bila nak jadi penakut, kan?
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A friend of mine called and we planned to have lunch or tea tomorrow...
Just to chill out...
For tomorrow is a special day...
:))
~Forever young~
*Ereen*
Sunday, February 24, 2013
A lesson from Abil and Fauziah...
AsSalam...
I have always liked to watch Entri Jameela, only time didn't permit me to watch it that regularly.
Today, there was a section on a husband called Abil who has taken care of his wife, Fauziah ever since Fauziah suffered a permanent brain damaged after her brain was deprived of oxygen after episodes of severe asthma attack.
I have read their ordeal in someone's blog 1-2 years ago. And today, I saw what Abil had to say about his true feelings about his wife.
The first time he saw his wife, he immediately fell in love with her, her 'classic' look according to him, turned him head over heels with her. They were happily married but unfortunately... on their second anniversary... Fauziah had a severe asthma attack. The second attack five days later rendered her to brain hypoxia and left her with a permanent brain damage.
He said... "Saya rindu isteri saya... saya rindukan gelak dia, saya rindukan manja dia, saya rindukan rajuk dia..." Kesian sangat.
I thought that apalah sangat dengan my problems now. Not even a single 'slice' of what he had to endure. He is going through a hard time every single day, taking care of his ailing wife who is getting worse by day....
I remember going through what I had to go through when I took care of arwah. I remember being so tired at some point, but most of the time I switched myself into 'the survival mode' when I think my adrenaline was in a rush most of the time that I didn't feel tired, I didn't feel anything really, I was numb and I really didn't care about other people or even myself. All I cared was only my husband, nothing else mattered at that time. It was him and only him...
And today, I should be thankful that Shah is no longer a huge burden for me to bear, Alhamdulillah... I am healing slowly but surely. InsyaALLAH.. Ada lah yang lebih terbaik untuk diri ini, samada ada partner or not.
Ada my nurse suruh mandi bunga lah, ada kata kena itu, kena ini... I will sandarkan everything pada ALLAH SWT. Nothing can befallen me without ALLAH's Will, He is my Creator and He will be the One who I will seek help and I will serahkan everything pada ALLAH SWT.
He Knows everything...
All the good and all the bad thing that is in our hearts...
Ya ALLAH...
Berikanlah kepada ku and semua ahli keluarga ku, sahabat2 ku and seluruh umat Islam...
kesabaran, kemuliaan dan kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat...
-AMIN-
I have always liked to watch Entri Jameela, only time didn't permit me to watch it that regularly.
Today, there was a section on a husband called Abil who has taken care of his wife, Fauziah ever since Fauziah suffered a permanent brain damaged after her brain was deprived of oxygen after episodes of severe asthma attack.
I have read their ordeal in someone's blog 1-2 years ago. And today, I saw what Abil had to say about his true feelings about his wife.
The first time he saw his wife, he immediately fell in love with her, her 'classic' look according to him, turned him head over heels with her. They were happily married but unfortunately... on their second anniversary... Fauziah had a severe asthma attack. The second attack five days later rendered her to brain hypoxia and left her with a permanent brain damage.
He said... "Saya rindu isteri saya... saya rindukan gelak dia, saya rindukan manja dia, saya rindukan rajuk dia..." Kesian sangat.
I thought that apalah sangat dengan my problems now. Not even a single 'slice' of what he had to endure. He is going through a hard time every single day, taking care of his ailing wife who is getting worse by day....
I remember going through what I had to go through when I took care of arwah. I remember being so tired at some point, but most of the time I switched myself into 'the survival mode' when I think my adrenaline was in a rush most of the time that I didn't feel tired, I didn't feel anything really, I was numb and I really didn't care about other people or even myself. All I cared was only my husband, nothing else mattered at that time. It was him and only him...
And today, I should be thankful that Shah is no longer a huge burden for me to bear, Alhamdulillah... I am healing slowly but surely. InsyaALLAH.. Ada lah yang lebih terbaik untuk diri ini, samada ada partner or not.
Ada my nurse suruh mandi bunga lah, ada kata kena itu, kena ini... I will sandarkan everything pada ALLAH SWT. Nothing can befallen me without ALLAH's Will, He is my Creator and He will be the One who I will seek help and I will serahkan everything pada ALLAH SWT.
He Knows everything...
All the good and all the bad thing that is in our hearts...
Ya ALLAH...
Berikanlah kepada ku and semua ahli keluarga ku, sahabat2 ku and seluruh umat Islam...
kesabaran, kemuliaan dan kebahagiaan di dunia dan akhirat...
-AMIN-
Friday, February 22, 2013
A month of floating in a daze...
AsSalam...
It has been a month, exactly a month when I last spoke to Shah... Asking if he was really getting married.
Tak sangka... sebulan, how time flies...
Not a single day had gone by without me, thinking of him...
Stupid me... but that is the truth...
But, alhamdulillah, I am so much better.
ALLAH makbulkan my doa to make me better...
I know, I can't forget him totally,
He had been and will always be a part of my life,
but he will not be anything except someone who had taught me about men,
about life and about love of a men~ an immortal...who will surely break my heart.
Shah,
I ikhlaskan everything,
Just go and be happy,
I know, you will always remember me everytime you call up your daughter,
because we share the very same name...
I hope she will become a good doctor oneday,
AMIN...
and Adik... I hope she will take care of you..
AMIN.
I hope, you would not compromise your time with your kids after you have a new life now.
Kesian anak2 Shah...
It has been a month, exactly a month when I last spoke to Shah... Asking if he was really getting married.
Tak sangka... sebulan, how time flies...
Not a single day had gone by without me, thinking of him...
Stupid me... but that is the truth...
But, alhamdulillah, I am so much better.
ALLAH makbulkan my doa to make me better...
I know, I can't forget him totally,
He had been and will always be a part of my life,
but he will not be anything except someone who had taught me about men,
about life and about love of a men~ an immortal...who will surely break my heart.
Shah,
I ikhlaskan everything,
Just go and be happy,
I know, you will always remember me everytime you call up your daughter,
because we share the very same name...
I hope she will become a good doctor oneday,
AMIN...
and Adik... I hope she will take care of you..
AMIN.
I hope, you would not compromise your time with your kids after you have a new life now.
Kesian anak2 Shah...
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I am down with a minor bouts of flu... same as last month too...
I was unwell with flu just about the same time when I was distraught with Shah.
Anyway, I am very busy now with my research... I am just so tired working at night and the weekends too. Next week will be research the whole week. I hope everything will work out alright. AMIN...
I just don't know what else to write...
All in drafts and I don't wish to publish them.
I'm just... I just... want to be alone.
-Ereen-
Monday, February 18, 2013
Getting private?
AsSalam..
Starting work again tomorrow.
I have 7 patients on the list for my morning clinic tomorrow and 4 in the afternoon.
Usually, the morning clinic would be a busy one... I just hope there will be no emergencies to attend to.
I am looking forward to work again, in a way... as I find that I feel somewhat better working, alhamdulillah.
I'm thinking of starting my own private session at the specialist clinic, I hope I can start pretty soon. Just to busy myself a bit and I think and extra ringgit would do me good too, I mean... why would it not, kan?
I think I will just do Saturday mornings or any one of the afternoons during the weekdays... maybe.
It's getting late. I desperately in need of some beauty sleep! My eye bags are getting heavier by day now. I think I look so run down, unhappy and old... :(
I hope to look fresher, happier, younger and more radiant by tomorrow! Haha...
Nite2 world.
-Ereen-
Starting work again tomorrow.
I have 7 patients on the list for my morning clinic tomorrow and 4 in the afternoon.
Usually, the morning clinic would be a busy one... I just hope there will be no emergencies to attend to.
I am looking forward to work again, in a way... as I find that I feel somewhat better working, alhamdulillah.
I'm thinking of starting my own private session at the specialist clinic, I hope I can start pretty soon. Just to busy myself a bit and I think and extra ringgit would do me good too, I mean... why would it not, kan?
I think I will just do Saturday mornings or any one of the afternoons during the weekdays... maybe.
It's getting late. I desperately in need of some beauty sleep! My eye bags are getting heavier by day now. I think I look so run down, unhappy and old... :(
I hope to look fresher, happier, younger and more radiant by tomorrow! Haha...
Nite2 world.
-Ereen-
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